Things need to change
The past few weeks have been interesting.
My step-mother died suddenly. Her death has brought me closer to my father. It’s also made me think hard about my health. I don’t feel good. It’s more than the GVHD, which has its own set of issues. I’ve got GI issues, I’m in constant pain. It’s not excruciating or anything, just there. It’s hard to move. I’m stiff and achy. And I’m tired. So damn tired.
I’m also diabetic due to the steroids I’m on to treat the GVHD. I know that once I’m off the steroids, my blood sugar will stabilize, but I am also at high risk. It runs in my family. I’m also on blood pressure medication, something I would like to rectify.
There’s no two ways about it. I have to make lifestyle changes. Right now, I’m eating a lot of sugar and a lot of convenience food. And I’m not moving my body much. It’s no wonder I feel like crap.
I can’t even claim ignorance. I know how to cook and I know the difference between what’s healthy and what’s not. I know what makes me feel sick and what makes me feel good. I know better. And I deserve better. Besides, to waste my life away would be a tremendous insult to my donor.